About

For over sixteen years I have been exploring one question, from the inside. Not reading about it, not believing things about it, but looking directly: what is this awareness that is awake right now, reading these words, and why do so few of us ever truly meet it?

I came to this the way many people do, through a kind of quiet desperation. I wanted something real. Not more ideas to think about, not another belief system to wear, but a direct and unmistakable experience of what is actually true. That search led me through deep meditation, through thousands of hours of inner work, and through hundreds of journeys out of the body into the worlds we pass through every night and almost always sleep through.

What I found there changed everything, and it was simpler than I expected. Most of us are asleep. Not only at night, but in broad daylight, carried along by a stream of thought and reaction we mistake for ourselves, barely present for the life happening in front of us. And the same awareness that learns to wake up inside a dream is the very awareness that learns to wake up inside a life. To explore one is to come alive in the other. This is the thread that runs through everything I teach.

What I am about

I am not interested in spirituality as decoration. I am interested in waking up.

There is a great deal of beautiful language in the spiritual world, and a great deal of it changes nothing, because it stays in the mind as one more thing to think and admire. What I care about is the part that actually transforms a person, the direct perception beneath the words, the experience you can verify for yourself without taking anyone's word for it, mine included. The teachers I trust are the ones who point you back to your own experience rather than binding you to theirs. That is the kind of teacher I try to be.

So my work is not about giving you more to believe. It is about helping you see, and helping you remember something that was never really lost: that you are not the noise in your head, you are the silent awareness underneath it, and that awareness is closer to you than your own breath.

The work

For several years I have shared this through the Astral Doorway, my YouTube channel, where I teach astral projection, lucid dreaming, the inner work of meeting and dissolving the ego, and the practical art of becoming present. Much of it is free, and always will be. It has grown into a community of hundreds of thousands of sincere people from every corner of the world, many of whom write to tell me they had been searching for years for someone who would speak about these things plainly, without dogma and without performance.

I am the author of Beyond Dreaming, a guide to astral projection and out-of-body experience that takes a different path from most books on the subject. Rather than handing over forceful techniques and quick tricks, it teaches you to understand the mechanics of consciousness itself, so that your own intuitive practice can unfold naturally. Its heart is that same quiet truth: that astral projection, lucid dreaming, and the awakening of consciousness are not three separate things, but one path. I have written other books as well, each one an attempt to put something almost wordless into honest language.

I founded Gnosis Cebu, a small spiritual school here in the Philippines, and with my family and our community we are building something I have wanted for a long time: a retreat center and healing sanctuary in the quiet mountains of Cebu, a place where this inner work can be lived in person, and where sincere seekers from anywhere in the world can come to do the kind of deep work that can only really be transmitted face to face.

Where I am now

I will be honest about something, because honesty is the only currency worth anything in this work.

I came up through a particular tradition, and I owe it a great deal. But over the years I grew disillusioned, not with the inner work, which is real, but with what happens when living truth gets frozen into an institution, a structure, a set of forms to defend and belong to. The moment a teaching becomes something you must believe in order to belong, it has already begun to die, and it quietly becomes one more thing for the ego to hide behind.

So I am stepping beyond the labels. What I teach now I would rather not name with any system at all, because the truth underneath them was never the property of any of them. It belongs to no tradition and to everyone. My only loyalty is to what is real, and to pointing you toward it as directly and as honestly as I can, in language anyone can follow, whether you have spent thirty years on a path or have never sat still in your life.

That is the whole of it. I am not here to gather followers, or to be admired, or to sell you a better version of yourself. I am here because I found something quietly extraordinary, and I cannot keep it to myself, and I would like to help you find it too, in your own experience, where no one can ever take it from you.

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The awakening of consciousness is not a belief to be acquired. It is something to be remembered.

— Gene